I've been so close to a breaking point this week. I have a huge paper due at the end of October, and I'm having a very difficult time getting the ball rolling. I've asked my adviser for help and direction, and he's been no help. I spent a huge part of this week just complaining, and that's no help. It's rolled into me being in a foul mood and that's no good for anyone. I contacted a librarian at the school for some help, and it looks like that might help get me through. I decided I'm only going to let myself complain about this one part of my big project. Everything else I just need to suck up and deal.
In order to help clear my mental state, I decided to take today off. I haven't even thought of graduate school today. I was in a great mood at school today and we had such a wonderful day. The kids were super and we had a lot of fun. Tonight, I could have done a ton of work, but I didn't. I stayed at school until 5:00 to get some grading finished, then I left.
When I got home, Scout and I went for a run. Besides a run last weekend, I haven't run in a long time. It wasn't long, but it was great. It felt very good to get some exercise. In my life, exercise has always been my way of coping. Then I surfed the internet for a while while hydrating myself, and now I'm going to plop in front of the tv, watch a show or a movie, then head to bed early and read my book.
It's so important to take time for myself during these busy times. I can sometimes be a little weak emotionally. If I don't take "me" time, I will go crazy and break down. It's also important to appreciate the good things in life no matter how rough things are. Toby is the most amazing man in the entire history of men. I am so lucky to share my life with him. We are going through these hard times together, and I wouldn't be able to do it without him. My family is close, and I'm so lucky to have them. They are another important piece of my support system. This includes Toby's family, too. I have a wonderful job that I love so much. Although it can get hectic with pressure and things to do, the kids make it all worth it. They are so special and I am so lucky to be a part of their lives. Scout is doing well. He's a happy, healthy dog who is a great companion, especially while Toby is working these crazy hours. We are healthy, thank God. See, look at all of these wonderful things I have in my life! I could go on forever. Although life is tough, there are always blessings to count. It's important to take time to appreciate things in life while we have them.
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